22 June 2010

Unwritten

Ada hal-hal yang tidak bisa diungkapkan dalam surat singkat yang ditulis dalam perjalanan Kemang-Ragunan. So, i'll write it here.

First of all, it's our Pandora, not ours Pandora. Second, i don't really remember about our first meeting. All i could remember is i say my name and you say "halo, my name is ....". Then you added my MSN. Terus lanjut ke bbm. I never ever feel 'connected' to someone, but now, i feel it.

After these almost-3-months-journey. After sushi to mcd to sop kaki to pizza hut. After ice skating to nyasar ke klender to bsd. After how to train your dragon to shrek 3 to PoP. After 18 white roses and 3 cupcakes. We came to the end.

You're not my friend neither my boyfriend. You are my PARTNER. And, having a partner like you is beyond my expectation. I call it beautiful. You can always make me smile and laugh. You are my mood booster every time i'm feeling down

One reason why i don't wanna be you girl is because i don't wanna be your ex. You are the best partner i ever had (because i only have one) and i don't wanna lose you with two simple words, BREAK UP. I've done my best. I don't even whining about our status. then, it's just doesn't makes sense when you said "please don't give up until the time we no longer have to lie about us", then six days later, you said "let's not meet each other".

do you remember when i said that i'll be here every time you need me and you don't have to face your problems alone? Admit it, i'm the one who can make you feel comfort and safe. And now, i need you to be the one who will say those sentences "don't worry. I'm here if you need me and you don't have to face it alone".

I'm asking nothing but my partner. i don't want you to be my bf or something like "in a relationship with ....". All i need is MY PARTNER. The one who can make me smile and laugh. The one who will listen to my "story of the day". The one who shares his feeling and story to me. The one who would share a cup of jcool with me.

Once again, i'm asking for nothing. I never ask you to break up with you girl friend. NEVER. So, is that all? really? Is it that easy to end it all? After almost-3-months we fight for something that we have. After all of our memories and secrets.

Well, i've said thank you and sorry for hundred times. But, i just can't believe it. I never ask something more than what we have. Because i really know that i have what i want in my hand, when i hold you.

So, that's all. now, what do you want?